Classic U-Haul lesbian with a chronic need to be loved, turned Health Coach.....
WELCOME TO MY BLOG!
That was the first draft title to the "About Me" section of my website. The whole process of writing that section was far more challenging than I expected. Truthfully, I had hoped someone else would write it for me. How do you sum up who you are in just a few paragraphs? How do you sum up how/why you improved your health? How do you sum up your need/drive/passion to help others?
In the end, I realized it would be impossible to do all of that in just a few paragraphs. Thankfully, the internet created blogs! This platform gives me the opportunity to introduce myself a little better. Through this blog, I will tell you more "about me". The good, the bad and the ugly! I'll dive deeper into this headline and the official one on my website. I'll tell you all about how/why I think I got to be 172lbs, how I lost the weight, how I went from wanting to end my life to now thriving!
This was Easter 2012. I dressed my kids up, sent them with their other Mom and spent the rest of the day fighting the urge to end my life.
The first suicidal thought I can consciously remember was in 1999. This is a memory that I just remembered last year. I see how that moment shaped so many moments later in life. How suicide became the go-to thought when things got hard. I understand how in that moment, the neurons fired and wired together in my brain to make that my response to trauma. I see the impact trauma has had in my thought process and I understand the role nutrition has played in that thought process as well. After battling depression, anxiety, and a host of other physical ailments for the last 20 years, I understand myself on an entirely new level. I understand how I got sick, mentally and physically, but more importantly, I understand how I got better.
In this blog, I will talk more about my suicidal days, my depression, and the discovery that anxiety was underneath it all the entire time. I will try and explain, to the best of my ability, how I think I came to be in that place and the work I do every single day to not be in that place ever again.
Thank you all for taking the time to read, for being here and for your love and support!