Classic U-Haul lesbian with a chronic need to be loved, turned Health Coach.....


That was the first draft title to the "About Me" section of my website. The whole process of writing that section was far more challenging than I expected. Truthfully, I had hoped someone else would write it for me. How do you sum up who you are in just a few paragraphs? How do you sum up how/why you improved your health? How do you sum up your need/drive/passion to help others?

In the end, I realized it would be impossible to do all of that in just a few paragraphs. Thankfully, the internet created blogs! This platform gives me the opportunity to introduce myself a little better. Through this blog, I will tell you more "about me". The good, the bad and the ugly! I'll dive deeper into this headline and the official one on my website. I'll tell you all about how/why I think I got to be 172lbs, how I lost the weight, how I went from wanting to end my life to now thriving!


This was Easter 2012. I dressed my kids up, sent them with their other Mom and spent the rest of the day fighting the urge to end my life.

The first suicidal thought I can consciously remember was in 1999. This is a memory that I just remembered last year. I see how that moment shaped so many moments later in life. How suicide became the go-to thought when things got hard. I understand how in that moment, the neurons fired and wired together in my brain to make that my response to trauma. I see the impact trauma has had in my thought process and I understand the role nutrition has played in that thought process as well. After battling depression, anxiety, and a host of other physical ailments for the last 20 years, I understand myself on an entirely new level. I understand how I got sick, mentally and physically, but more importantly, I understand how I got better.

In this blog, I will talk more about my suicidal days, my depression, and the discovery that anxiety was underneath it all the entire time. I will try and explain, to the best of my ability, how I think I came to be in that place and the work I do every single day to not be in that place ever again.

Thank you all for taking the time to read, for being here and for your love and support!

Thank you, Angie, my counselor, for everything you have done and continue to do for me. I know you're going to say that I'm the one that does the work, but you are the one that taught me what work to do. Thank you for helping me find me. For peeling back the onion one layer at a time. I am forever grateful for you and the space you hold for me on a weekly basis!

Thank you to my sister, Kim. I never would have pursued any type of coaching without you. Franchise Volleyball has saved me in more ways than I can ever begin to explain. Thank you for following your passion and in turn helping me find mine. Did you ever know that you're my hero?

Thank you, Marie. Oh man how do I even begin to thank you? Thank you for seeing me. For understanding me. For knowing me the way that you do. And thank you so much for bringing Laura into my life. Every single human on this planet should have a Laura and I am so glad she's ours!

Thank you, Sandy & Mackey. I would not have survived 2020 without you two. Thank you for being with me through some of the saddest days of my life. Thank you for the adventures, the laughter, the conversations, and free therapy sessions. You two are my rocks!

Thank you, Bridgette. I don't think I ever would have had the confidence to pursue this career without your support. Thank you for your hug. Thank you for holding space for me throughout this entire process, for listening to every insecurity I have had along the way and redirecting me back to this path.

Thank you, Tara. Your love and support have always been a constant throughout my entire life, and I am forever grateful for our conversations these past few years. Receiving a Tara Traver & Bridgette Perras hug at the same time will forever be one of the greatest moments of my life. Thank you for the best surprise ever! And thank you both for being my Pod Squad!

Thank you to my babies! You two amaze me every single day. Thank you for listening to me ramble about dysregulated nervous systems, unhealed emotional trauma, and nutrition for the last year. I love you both so much!

To my team and all the athletes, I have coached, I owe you the biggest thank you of them all. You all have touched and changed my life in so many ways. You are my inspiration every single day!

To my Reagy Baby, thank you for being you. Thank you for everything you bring to this world. You are an amazing human being, and I am so honored to be your aunt. Thank you for trusting me to be a part of your journey and for doing the work right along with me!

And to the one I married; I am grateful for the role you have played in my healing journey. You did not ruin my life and I am forever grateful for the lessons I have learned from you. Thank you for leaving me. Be well.


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